should i start with this? such strangeness.
years ago while getting some energetic work done by an amazing healer, i had a vision of being from another planet. some who know me won't think twice about this; i'm a little odd. i've had sensations that i couldn't really explain my whole life, since i was very young, and i've wondered what they were. hard to put words to it, but it's something like things shifting from thin toothpick-like size to big, puffy marshmellow-like size, the same object, shifting back and forth, only i can feel it inside, like touch, but not with my skin. right. when i was young, i found those experiences frightening, but by the time of this healing session, i had learned to breathe through them. let them be. they're much more rare. attempting to talk about them, i put the words 'shifting dimensions' to the experience. still not sure what it is.
during this session, seeing myself on another planet, with these familiar, strange sensations, i saw how my species were naturally able to shift dimensions, so that galaxies became atoms and atoms became galaxies, seemingly traveling but really not moving, more of a contraction or an expansion. i seemed to remember a desire to travel across the same dimension, that a star had caught my eye and with adolescent wonder, determination and carelessness, i struck out across the abyss. traveling, traveling, working to maintain focus, which star was it? that one! focus, traveling, stretching, where am i? where are my edges? feeling fear and self-abandon and cold, lost. lost in the darkness for who knows how long.
then waking to a comet, catching its tail and riding, refreshed by new focus.
this was about the time of hale-bopp when i wondered how many souls may be saved from the abyss by passing comets.
so it seemed like a past life, but who knows, really. doesn't much matter if it's true or not. it illustrates experience from another perspective, another internal landscape, best not taken too seriously.
i'm really loving this new path that i started studying last april: Sophian Gnostic Christianity (magdalene-circle.org). great schtuff! can't get enough, trying not to loose my job from reading it too much at work. learning more about Christ, our true nature and True Will (Divine Will). getting interesting possible explanations for some of my strange experiences, learning kabbalah and the tree of life, wondering exactly where i've visited, what types of consciousness i've touched.
suddenly today it seemed that i must've come here, to this planet, to study to manifest/call in/allow to flow the Christ nature in me, to return home to be their Messiah.
right. not to be taken seriously.
but what if?
